January 2010
New Thing For 18
Dad: Alright, Shayna, time to leave.
Me: Hang on, I have to burn a CD first.
Dad: I know it's your birthday but you really don't want to be late today.
Me: Maybe being late is my new thing for 18.
Dad: Hell no. It better not be.
Me: Well, I could have worse habits for 18.
Dad: .....and one of those will not being late everywhere, c'mon. I have tea for you upstairs.
I had a dream last night that I didn't get into...
Thanks, Pressure, for invading even my moments of rest. You rock. I’m anxious. I’ve been torn between doing what I love, showing myself to the people who doubt me and telling them that I, in fact, will be successful, will be happy, and doing what is expected. There’s hesitation in the best of us. It’s alright. I just need to mail in the letters of recommendation, send in my...
Watchcrookedindifference:
fucking around on the rollers tonight. i need to work on my spins. trained for bout an hour tonight.
this looks so cool to me. i don’t know how difficult this is or how long it takes you not to just fall off. but it looks fun. the last bike i rode was stationary, inside a gym. that sentence used to read “the last bike i wore was on stationary” i...
“Until you find something to fight for, you settle for something to fight...”
– Chuck Palahniuk (via laurenleebolek)
It’s 18 years on Sunday and I’ll fight against, still. Maybe year 19 will be something fighting for. Maybe we can say 18.5 years. I’ll try - after all, I’m still around and I’ve been getting stronger. My muscles are growing and my...
Drink your caffeine, shout from the hallway, save...
me: ...yeah, I mean, I talked to her and she was just like yelling. It was terrible, I didn't really know what to do and so I just decid--
you: Hey. Shayna. Hey. SHAYNA. Is everything alright?
me: oh, yeah. everything's alright. *waves hand*
you: *shakes head* But not really, right?
me: *nod*
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you: Hey, Shayna, hang on a second there. No, no, no. Hey. What happened? Everything isn't alright so -- come here, don't walk away, it's not that easy.
The also known as: "Please be alright."
We’ve perfected the ‘walk and talk’ to the point where we’re both too polite to stop. “Come on in, it’s okay” you’d say. “Oh, yeah - it’s back over there but I’ll just turn around.” I’d say. Yesterday you told me about your injury, only which I can assume is in your hand from getting punched. But you said you’d...
Anyone need a wild and crazy guy as a boyfriend?
actioncalvin:
If nice guys finish last where do I end up?
On “The Bachelor” this season, no, I have no guilt whatsoever about watching that show, Jake Pavelka is the lucky one to pick his wife out of a whole gaggle of beautiful, yet somewhat nutty, women after being pegged as “too perfect” and “the nice guy” on Jillian Harris’ season last year. Now...
I follow the shadow you drape onto the tile floors...
you aren’t alone and it isn’t too dark for me to see your potential. we can leave our socks in our shoes at the door and jackets somewhere on front seats it used to be sunny here but then it just got cold. i may not unlock the door but that doesn’t mean i don’t want you in drink decaffeinated gas station coffee because it’s only nine o clock and the conversation...
i'll dream of energy bars, highways, and airports...
actioncalvin:
Soft and Sweet. This is inspired...
Coffee Cup Rings and Other Things
i’m not upset with you or too distracted to talk. i’m disappointed in my self and my meekness. or, really, lack thereof. i’m getting upset with myself, with how i handled myself afterwards and how i still like to think about getting my revenge. she said i’d get angry enough one day and that’s when we had to start talking about it. we have an appointment in a week. i...
Today, I realized that I do not remember how to...
I came face smashed against a couple of people today and luckily everyone I knocked into was in good enough spirits to turn me in the right direction. I completely forgot how complicated walking in the hallway is.. And once I came home, I proceeded to drop everything I held. Topping off, of course, with a big bowl of tomato soup all over my hands, pants, and socks. If it wasn’t so funny, I...
I've been wearing leggings every day for the past...
wear yoga pants! Yayyayy school. Pft.
#237
I’m on the search for yoga pants. I’m so tired today that I just want to sit and sleep inside of a cloud’s mouth And you’d wait for me to finish my eyeballs out, To wait until my lids were open again And to wait until my lips were speaking I’m looking for yoga pants. I’m so tired, I want to simulate sitting in a cloud’s mouth. I’m looking for yoga...
crowded coffee shops, take 2:
T: Here, you need more room to take pictures.
Me: Thanks. Now I have a 1x1 foot square.
T: And there's a couch over there!
Me: Well, I wouldn't want to take pictures sitting down, everything would be blocked.
T: Yeah but you need to sit down.
Me: Why?
T: Because! Have you eaten or drank anything today?
Me: ...yes? I had dinner before I left to come here and I'm getting coffee later.
T: Oh, well, you've been standing longer than me.
Me: I'm alright
S: I just got hip checked.
T: What if I hip checked Shayna?
Me: What?
S: She asked what would happen if she hip checked you.
T: You'd fall over.
Me: Did I do something to give you the impression that I'm frail and will fall over at a mere touch?
S: You could only fall in a 1x1 shape or you'd run into other people.
T: That's why you need to go sit down!
S: Yeah, maybe you should.
Me: ... Uhm, guys. I'm alright. I promise.
T: Alriiiight but I'd take advantage of this opportuniiiiity.
Me: Why don't YOU sit down?
T: Because YOU'RE the one who should.
S: ... Some guy just sat down there.
Me: NOW I'll sit there!
T: Thank you!
Me: I was kidding.
S: And someone just took one of the one's in your 1x1 square.
Me: Wow.
crowded coffee shops, take 1:
T: I don't wanna go back to school tomorrow
Me: Why are there so many people in here?
T: Just imagine all the people back at school tomorrow
Me: I mean, I kind of thought that there would be a few people but this is insane
T: And tomorrow, in class, it's going to be that way too. There'll be too many people there too.
Me: I can't even sit down!
T: You'll be sitting ALL DAY tomorrow in school .. when we have to go.
Me: I don't want to go back to school tomorrow
T: Me. Either.
“Explosions In The Sky is accompanying me as I lay in bed, half-asleep, listening...”
– (via devincastro)
“First Breath After Coma” is my go-to calm song. For 9 minutes and 33 seconds, the instruments explode together in the most beautiful manner. The volume can fluctuate on any given day depending on my mood, depending on how much calm I may need. The world doesn’t...
cwphoto:
carlisleiq:
lostlovers:
nyred:
...
dear neck,
i’m sorry. i know you work hard to hold up Head and have to support the connection with Shoulders. i thought i’d give you a break by letting you and Mind nap upstairs in the recliner but when Mouth became smashed in the open position against the fabric of the chair and Legs curled into the fetal position, time went by me. three and a half hours like this, i’m sure, you thought...
dreamnoises:
tomorrow we’ll meet to have too many drinks & discuss the awful stories we read. the one where the bodies were stored in the attic & the ceiling was saturated with blood. yes, that one. where the blood dripped down the walls. we’ll drink red wine & the wine will become blood. we’ll drink their blood. we’ll laugh. we’ll say how awful it is. we’ll drink their blood. we...
...no, maybe not.
I've been wearing leggings every day for the past...
And I think I’m going to try and get away with wearing yoga pants or skirts or jeans when we go back to school Tuesday. I’m pooped. And I don’t want to wear jeans. But I think it’s time I got myself together a little bit more and wore something other than leggings…no, maybe not. A couple more hours in them and I may have finished my fix…
I'm not trying to be sarcastic when I say this....
actioncalvin:
…..but really.
Carson Daily is still on television?!
My friends and I sat around my dinner table the other day trying to figure out why he was so bitter. We figured that he should be the one solving all the Conan, Leno, Jimmy drama (and has anyone asked about where Carson will go?) would be for Carson to take the high road and offer to cut down on his expenses for Last Call with...
Name: Shayna Date: 1/15/2010 Colorgenics Number: 02354716
You feel that everything is going against you and you are worn out and exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling. You are trying to protect yourself but at the same time you are hiding your feelings, hoping that by so doing, you can avoid exposing yourself to attack. Hopefully this will give you the chance to get on with your life....
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twelvemonthvideotape:
JANUARY Goodbye, GL2!
Don’t forget to reblog if you enjoy! This is the last VIDEOTAPE shot in 4:3 format! Say goodbye to the GL2 everybody!
OH, OH, I'm sorry -
Did you just say TWO college essays and finished and all five applications are started? Why, yes, yes, that’s what I heard. Oh, and is it only 3:31 in the afternoon? Oh, and do you not have any homework at all OR any school until Tuesday?
Ah, and wait, are you going to go drink some juice, too? That’s right. It’s all right. All of that is correct. I’m so proud of myself -...
tessisahippie:
I was told today that I am “creative as hell.”
I am? Since when?
I honestly think I’m one of the least creative people on the planet. I can’t sit down and draw something surreal or write something epic. I can draw a mean cloud? I do fancy myself a good writer but nothing I can write will change the world. I don’t dress fabulously, although I would if I were financially able. But...
muse
You: Could you join us over here? You're a creative person so..So I was talking about it and we want to use three muses and I couldn't decide .. see, for me, since I'm a guy, my muses are female. I go back to women for paintings, you know? But I was wondering if you had your muses, or what you, or what..what are your muses?
Me: All male - my muses are all male.
You: Really! So if you were given three females as muses. And you had to like, and you had to draw or paint from them, what would you do?
Me: I guess I wouldn't turn them away but .. but .. I guess I couldn't, or, I guess I wouldn't be that inspired then.
You: Haha - ohhh, alright, that makes sense.